momofthree
05-17-2005, 03:20 PM
Dear Ladies,
While walking (or strolling I should say) last night, I found myself wondering, "what is normal?" It is so bizarre to go from 9 months of pregnancy into this type of illness and then recovery. I mean, my goodness, I could not remember not breathing hard once I got so BIG and round belly while pregnant. At 5 months people were like "OH MY GOSH" and I remember getting winded but still being able to walk and carry on. Now I get a stopped up nose and start having to breathe through my mouth and it is now "Is this SOB?" or am I just stoppy or what? I mean, every single time I walk up the stairs I strive to remember if I ever took a deep breath before. I cannot remember. I remember being able to run and lovin' it. I remember being tired, but was it THIS kind of tired? Sometimes I know my meds/blood pressure are nagging me because I feel so out of it. I cannot remember how everything is supposed to "feel" and I try not to let it bother me too much. Frequently I ask my husband, "Do you feel your heart if you do this? Does you pulse ever do this? Do you breathe like this when you do this?" He is so kind to answer and encourage me. I was so stunned to find out that everyone can feel their pulse if they do certain things,,,meaning their jugular pulse over their shoulder blades. For a long time I thought I was just having it because I was sick. Mine was so bad you could see my pulse in my neck for months. Anyhoo, I could ramble on and on. The point is, I struggle to remember how it used to be or should be. Anyone else experienced this? Most often, I am fine and I learn that what is affecting me is true for the norm. But sometimes I know that it is a result of PPCM or meds. I try not to go too deep in my thoughts or I would go bonkers.
Again, walking this through to recovery!
Alison
While walking (or strolling I should say) last night, I found myself wondering, "what is normal?" It is so bizarre to go from 9 months of pregnancy into this type of illness and then recovery. I mean, my goodness, I could not remember not breathing hard once I got so BIG and round belly while pregnant. At 5 months people were like "OH MY GOSH" and I remember getting winded but still being able to walk and carry on. Now I get a stopped up nose and start having to breathe through my mouth and it is now "Is this SOB?" or am I just stoppy or what? I mean, every single time I walk up the stairs I strive to remember if I ever took a deep breath before. I cannot remember. I remember being able to run and lovin' it. I remember being tired, but was it THIS kind of tired? Sometimes I know my meds/blood pressure are nagging me because I feel so out of it. I cannot remember how everything is supposed to "feel" and I try not to let it bother me too much. Frequently I ask my husband, "Do you feel your heart if you do this? Does you pulse ever do this? Do you breathe like this when you do this?" He is so kind to answer and encourage me. I was so stunned to find out that everyone can feel their pulse if they do certain things,,,meaning their jugular pulse over their shoulder blades. For a long time I thought I was just having it because I was sick. Mine was so bad you could see my pulse in my neck for months. Anyhoo, I could ramble on and on. The point is, I struggle to remember how it used to be or should be. Anyone else experienced this? Most often, I am fine and I learn that what is affecting me is true for the norm. But sometimes I know that it is a result of PPCM or meds. I try not to go too deep in my thoughts or I would go bonkers.
Again, walking this through to recovery!
Alison