I MISS my Mom....it's been almost a year..

[amyls]

I miss her so badly. She passed away on my son's First Communion...May 16th of last yr.....I was watching Greys anatomy last night...watching that nurse die, it was so real. My mom lived with me for the last 3 months then spent 10 days in the hospice. That shallow breathing and grey eyes.. her last breaths...it just brought back all the memories.
I'm sorry...I know this isn't the place to vent, but I know you guys and you're always so supportive. I just miss her, thats all.
God Bless,
amy

[jmonte]

Amy- I'm so sorry- I haven't lost my mom but I think about it often as she gets older. I truly think it would be one of the worst days of my life. I am thinking about you today as my mom went in for testing for spots on her liver. Cancer runs rampant in my family and I am very worried. I will say a little prayer for both of you- take care- Julie

[margaretinva]

Don't ever apologize for letting your feelings out here - there is a lot of support for you! I wish I could give you a big hug!

[amyls]

Julie,
Thank you so very much...I will say a prayer for your mom. And you as well. The worry must be awful. Pls let us know.
amy

[melissamph]

Sweet Amy,

I so remember when you were going through all of this last year! I know as I lost my Daddy to lung cancer. I will lift you up again and pray for peace. I know there are things that just hit me just right and I remember Daddy and it as if he were there next to me! I treasure those times and those of when I dream of him! I am sorry about the trigger of the TV show though. I also have memories like that too. It has been 13 years since my Dad passed on. It gets a bit more bareable but you won't forget! Love you sweetie!

[Karen T]

Amy, I too remember when you were going through this last year. My thoughts are with you. Have you thought of remembering her in a special way? (I have a friend who's mom died around the holidays--Thanksgiving and Christmas--and each year she and her girls have their friends over, bake cookies and then go to a nursing home or visit someone who is homebound to deliver cookies). I'm sure it does not take away the sadness but it allows them to remember her and do something for someone else. Just a thought.

[momoftwoboys]

Amy ~ I'm so sorry you are sort of "reliving" how you were feeling a year ago when your mom died. I haven't lost a parent yet (I'm only 26, and they are only in their mid fourties) and, literally, can't even imagine what it's going to be like. I am going through sort of a similar situation right now though because my sister just lost her boyfriend about two months ago from a car accident (she is only 21 and he was a few days short of turning 26). I was pretty close to him and I just can't get him out of my mind lately. I can't even imagine what my sister is feeling and going through. If I had super powers I would just take away everyone's pain in a heart beat (no pun intended). I will pray for extra strength and peace for you to get you through this difficult time again. {{{HUGS}}}

[Lisa V]

Amy, I remember what a wonderful daughter you were to your mother last year and how well you tried to care for her. You did a wonderful thing taken her into your home and letting her live her finals days with her family. She is watching you right now and is so very proud of what you did for her. I am so sorry that you are sad but with time the hurt will subside just a very little. My mom has been gone for 30 years this year and I am still sad and sometimes angry that she is not here with me. Try to remember all the great and loving times you all shared. I am sending you a major hug right now a nice cup of tea. I wish I was there in person so we can chat and talk about your mom in person. I find talking about the people who love that have passed away really helps me. Just becuase they are not with us anymore does not mean we cant talk about them once a day or more.

[momofthree]

Hey...glad you shared this and I agree with what everyone else has already stated. Prayers on the way tonight. Alison

[amyls]

Thanks you guys. It helps so much that I can come here.
:)
amy

[deidre61]

Oh Amy I know how very hard it is the ache is with you for so long. I will pray for you. Time does help but you were the one who cared for her and you were so close and you haven't been well either. I got tears in my eyes when I read your post because I miss my mom to and it's been 14 year since she passed and it is still such a deep pain. I know we've never met Amy but I love you and think about you often. I just had surgery on my gums so I have been out of touch again. It was a year in April since my sisters death. Life is so hard sometimes.