Echo Results....

[julie]

ok, back from the drs. appt for my echo results. They said they finally had the results but they would not tell them to me over the phone...I had to come in to hear them.. That worried me. All I could think of was wow, I am dying.. and they have to tell me in person... LOL although last night I had a dream about my ef again. te first time was the night beofre my echo and I dreamed that it was at 8 % but it went up to 9.5. LOL then last night I dreamed that the right side of my heart got an EF of 63% an the left 59%. LOL so I was optimistic when I went in. I also have been reading through my medical records...the ones that I have.. and i found that I had an echo done on Sept. 19..(a month after everything started) and it said my ef had gone up to 55% with several exclaimation marks after they wrote that. So I was very curious to find out what they had gone up to since then. We waited an extra half hour to get in.and another 20 minutes in the room waiting for the dr. Oh well. He came in and talked to me a bit and said that my bottom number of blood pressure is a little high... so he is addding a med to my list of meds and asked me what the peri said and I said not much..he mostly just went over my records and stuff and gave us an ultrasound and we found out then that it wasn't just one...but infact 2 babies.. Dr. Shah totally does NOT think my heart can handle it. so so far that is 2 different drs saying no way. :( and several nurses. :(( He wasn't aware that it is twins and was like WOAH! LOL He read some stuff in his notes and said that I would have to be on complete bed rest the whole entire pregnancy and of course being eatched like a hawk. but he wouldn't give me a percentage of death rate... just that i would most likely have alot of problems and possibly not make it. He said that my EF was 40%. so I guess it has already dropped down since sept after it went up after I coded and everything. So htat was not very good news. Bt 40 % isn't horrible..but also not normal either...so I am still lost. and stressed. and I lost another 2 pounds. LOL that is what happens when I am throwing up like 2ce a day. LOL

so that is the update... Throw your opinions at me please. Iam ready.

Love u all--
julie

[SerenaWelsh]

Julie,

40% isn't so bad, but it means one of two things.
A) you didn't start the pregnancy recovered
or
B) you were recovered and have already had a relapse so early in the pregnancy.

Either way, statistically you're not in the best catagory. However, it's your body and your decision and only you know what you're willing to risk. I don't think anybody here is going to fault you for any decision you make from this point forward.

[mikeyandBellesmommy]

I hate to always sound like the Bit$c here but 40% is not good news for your family..



I hope you guys can come to a decision soon and you keep us updated, I hope only the best for you and your family..

Good luck

Cari

[mikeyandBellesmommy]

Oh and by the way B-6 vitamins helped me with some of my nausea in my last pregnancy and those preggy pop things

[Janelle]

Hey Julie--Having gone thru a twin pregnancy I can tell you it was very hard. I definitely would not want to be in your shoes right now and I am praying for you and your entire family. I hope that you are getting support on the homefront. I cannot tell you what to do, but know what we will support you in whatever you decide! Take care of yourself!!

[LauraNP]

My opinion is you need to do what's right in your heart.

BUT

Having gone through what you did before.. I think there is a really good chance that something very bad will happen to you during this pregnancy. I went through a twin pregnancy and it was the hardest thing I have ever done. All of the shortness of breath, fatigue, etc, MULTIPLY IT BY 2. You have 2 other children to take care of.. how will you do that if you have to be on complete bedrest?

I know you are thinking of your innocent babies' lives.. and I would definitely have a terrible time with this decision too.. but remember if you die they die too.

So my opinion.

I think you should terminate. Do it soon before it gets harder.

I'm so sorry for you.

Big hugs and we're here for you..

[SarahsMom]

Julie,

I'm so sorry! Gosh, I don't really have any advice to give you...It's such a difficult decision. I think your children need you here with them so make sure that you put them at the top of the priority list while making this difficult decision. Going through a pregnancy myself after being fully healed was VERY, VERY difficult and SCARY...I just couldn't imagine going through it with a 40% EF and twins!

Whatever you decide, we're all here for you.

Hang in there! <<<BIG BIG HUGS>>

Love,
Kari

[miracle baby]

I'm so sorry you're having to make this decision.My opinion I could not chance a pregnancy with knowing I have a 40% ef.You have two great children that need their mother.That just my thought no one can tell you what to do and we will all be here no matter what you decide.I pray that god will give you the strength to make the decision that is best for you and your family.I WISH YOU THE BEST.
HUGE(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
If you need to talk more or just vent you know my email.:(

[sfekke]

I'm so glad you finally found out and you know what you're dealing with. I must admit after reading your story I thought it would be much worse, so it was a relief when I heard you even had a 55% in September. Wow what a bounce back! I've heard where echo results could vary from doctor to doctor, because it is manual calculation, but look I'm not sure how much and how likely they differ. It's always in the back of my mind. When I was told 55% the computer spit out 46% ( in this case the computer is not the most accurate) I just didn't believe it.

I know with the 40% you might be thinking, why not just another 10%. If it were me it wouldn't make much of a difference. I don't want to tell you what I would do in your shoes. I guess its a fact that if you go through with this there is a possibility that you would never fully recover, and never have the chance for a lower risk pregnancy. Regardless of differing opinions on pro-choice/pro-life, I believe your choice to terminate or go through is "choosing life" either way.

I hope you can find peace in making this decision.

Sarah

[miachic]

Oh Julie. I could just cry for you. I have no advice at all but just to let you know I'm praying for you. May God be with you in every way in whatever decision you make!

[margiehubbell]

Julie,
I want to send you lots of love and support. My heart goes out to you and your family. Keeping you in my prayers, Love Margie

[KellyDL]

Julie, I pray that things go okay for you, no matter what you decide to do. We will all be here to listen no matter what road you take. Either one is going to be hard for you. Please keep us updated on everything.

[Mindyt]

Julie,
You have such a difficult decision to make. I can't imagine how you must feel right now. I hope you have support from your family in making your decision. You will be in my prayers and whatever you decide, we will be here for you.

[lilyjack]

I am sending positive thoughts your way. If it were my decision, I think I would be too scared to continue the pregnancy with 40%. My primary concern would be leaving my two children without a mom. But I also think deciding to terminate the pregnancy after seeing an ultrasound would be incredibly difficult for me, especially knowing it's two babies. Whatever you decide, I wish you the best of luck and health!

[tabs]

Julie,

My heart goes out to you! This is a decision that you and your husband must make together. Stats are stats, they are just numbers and no one knows what the future holds for you expect for God.

I completed an entire pg with an EF of 43% with 2 other children at home and it was hard. I also had only a single baby. I was not treated with meds and my EF did drop to 7%, but......that is not said to sway you one way or the other.

Either choice you make will be very difficult and you will need a lot of support. I will continue to pray for you.

Twilah

[tinabowen]

((((HUGS))))
Your EF is good since you were only 8% when you were diagnosed.
When do you see the high risk OB again?
This is putting so much stress on you right now and I wish I was close to give you a big hug.

[my4kidsma]

You have our prayers lady. If there is anything I can do for you, please let me know.

[ahseyac]

I don't know what to say except I'm praying for you.

[marissar]

Whatever you decide I would seek local counseling before I did either. Not to change your mind either way but just find a counselor you can go one on one with face to face to help you through this hard time. Find one that will support your wishes. If you decide to terminate then I would find a counselor that will support that before I did terminate just so I would have her to fall back on. You may think you can deal with it and all will be fine but you never know exactlly how bad it will upset you ( or not) till you've been there. I give you this advice because I have a handicapped baby and I thought just let her live I don't care it won't bother me at all. Don't get me wrong I'm glad she lived but it is a lot harder than I thought.