Caramommy
03-21-2005, 07:15 PM
Hello all! Checking back in to see what's new.
Firstly, heart-health wise I seem to be fine. I'm tired, but that's because I'm a lazy-butt this time of year and needing to get out and exercise. I've put on weight and now I have to go through all the business of getting it back off again. I haven't had my yearly check up yet, but it's due soon. I don't really want to know, frankly. It's a number, and can have such a dramatic effect on my emotions that I just don't care to know it. It's so variable, but I guess it's important for them to watch over things. I think I'll just have my echo or Muga, or whichever they are going to do, and tell them to keep it to themselves unless something is wrong. I won't even call for the results. If it's higher than last time, then fantastic! I was hoping it would be...and if it isn't, I don't actually want to carry that number around like a wet blanket. Yeah, I'm chicken, I guess. hEHEH.
Anyway, we're painting some rooms in our new house, waiting for the weather to get dry enough to put in our septic system. We're pretty well broke right now, paying the mortgage, but I'm still in school working towards becoming an LPN. I actually take the test to get into the core classes on the last day of this month. Wish me luck!
Life is great until it's time for me to go and have my ICD interrogated or something, then I have to think about all that business and I wonder, "Why is this STILL part of my life?" because it seems like it was over long ago. It seems so beside the point. My cardiologist told me a year ago that he feels my future is bright, but I wish that meant I didn't have to see him anymore unless I have problems. I've kind of made a pact with myself...if there are no further issues with my heart for the next three years, AND they do decide to remove my ICD, whether they want me to or not...I'm checking out. I'll call them if I have any problems...either that, or I'm talking them into yearly appt. rather than 6 months. But hey, they were reluctant to let me go to 6 months...they said that never happens with heart patients. Well, it does when they are ME and got WELL. ;) :) :D :p
No, I'm not 100 percent, and maybe never will be. I have some scarring, but it's not a big deal. My biggest problem is that I'm turning 36 this year and I need to lose the rest of my weight and get moving more. I don't want any heart issues coming back to haunt me when I get older!
Otherwise, I have little to report. This has seemed like the longest winter in history to me! I don't know why! I just couldn't wait for it to be over. I was so grumpy this morning when I went out for my walk and it was still cold. It was biting through my jacket, and that just got on my last nerve! WINTER GO AWAY! HEHEHE!
All is well...life goes on and this heart stuff slides into the background. I promise! It's true! You'd have never gotten me to believe that three years ago, but it does. I even forget I have an ICD in my chest, because it never goes off (THANK YOU GOD!) and doesn't bother me. Well, okay, high tension towers still bother me, but the other day I almost walked right up to one on a country path before my husband pointed it out to me. It was hilarious! I reacted like a vampire caught in the sunlight! If I had a cape, I would have yanked it up to my face and run screaming, "Blah! Blah!!! Electromagnetic fields! Curse you!" (note to those who don't know, high levels of electromagneic energy can set off an ICD by confusing its electrical reading system and making it think you are having a bad rhythm...very crummy).
So to those who are new...your healing is coming and your life lies before you. Believe it! To other oldsters on here...hey, ain't it great to be alive?
Blessings to you,
Cara
Firstly, heart-health wise I seem to be fine. I'm tired, but that's because I'm a lazy-butt this time of year and needing to get out and exercise. I've put on weight and now I have to go through all the business of getting it back off again. I haven't had my yearly check up yet, but it's due soon. I don't really want to know, frankly. It's a number, and can have such a dramatic effect on my emotions that I just don't care to know it. It's so variable, but I guess it's important for them to watch over things. I think I'll just have my echo or Muga, or whichever they are going to do, and tell them to keep it to themselves unless something is wrong. I won't even call for the results. If it's higher than last time, then fantastic! I was hoping it would be...and if it isn't, I don't actually want to carry that number around like a wet blanket. Yeah, I'm chicken, I guess. hEHEH.
Anyway, we're painting some rooms in our new house, waiting for the weather to get dry enough to put in our septic system. We're pretty well broke right now, paying the mortgage, but I'm still in school working towards becoming an LPN. I actually take the test to get into the core classes on the last day of this month. Wish me luck!
Life is great until it's time for me to go and have my ICD interrogated or something, then I have to think about all that business and I wonder, "Why is this STILL part of my life?" because it seems like it was over long ago. It seems so beside the point. My cardiologist told me a year ago that he feels my future is bright, but I wish that meant I didn't have to see him anymore unless I have problems. I've kind of made a pact with myself...if there are no further issues with my heart for the next three years, AND they do decide to remove my ICD, whether they want me to or not...I'm checking out. I'll call them if I have any problems...either that, or I'm talking them into yearly appt. rather than 6 months. But hey, they were reluctant to let me go to 6 months...they said that never happens with heart patients. Well, it does when they are ME and got WELL. ;) :) :D :p
No, I'm not 100 percent, and maybe never will be. I have some scarring, but it's not a big deal. My biggest problem is that I'm turning 36 this year and I need to lose the rest of my weight and get moving more. I don't want any heart issues coming back to haunt me when I get older!
Otherwise, I have little to report. This has seemed like the longest winter in history to me! I don't know why! I just couldn't wait for it to be over. I was so grumpy this morning when I went out for my walk and it was still cold. It was biting through my jacket, and that just got on my last nerve! WINTER GO AWAY! HEHEHE!
All is well...life goes on and this heart stuff slides into the background. I promise! It's true! You'd have never gotten me to believe that three years ago, but it does. I even forget I have an ICD in my chest, because it never goes off (THANK YOU GOD!) and doesn't bother me. Well, okay, high tension towers still bother me, but the other day I almost walked right up to one on a country path before my husband pointed it out to me. It was hilarious! I reacted like a vampire caught in the sunlight! If I had a cape, I would have yanked it up to my face and run screaming, "Blah! Blah!!! Electromagnetic fields! Curse you!" (note to those who don't know, high levels of electromagneic energy can set off an ICD by confusing its electrical reading system and making it think you are having a bad rhythm...very crummy).
So to those who are new...your healing is coming and your life lies before you. Believe it! To other oldsters on here...hey, ain't it great to be alive?
Blessings to you,
Cara